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"Life is like a box of Chocolates...You never know what your gonna get"
~Forrest Gump~

I have to agree with ol Forrest! I am in the midst of moving my stuff out of my cousin's house and figuring out what I want to take with me to Washington and planning my birthday fishing mission and making sure I am doing the right thing! I know this will be a test and I have to admitt I hate taking tests. (maybe because i never really studied for them) But I am sure that God is throwing this at me to enable me to be a stronger woman and to witness to my parents. I will be bringing Gizzmo with me and man he is become my Best Bud! He hates it when I go to work that if not being restrained by Chris then he will chase after me in the truck! I have to admitt its partly my fault that he chases the truck only because at times Milo and Gizzmo go for runs runnig after the truck and boy they both are fast little boogers!!! It is the funniest thing to watch! Thats one of the great things living in the country! You live on a dirt road that is about a half mile and at the end is your mail box! And its just awesome having a panoramic view of the mountains in your front window!
I am getting anxious about living back at home! I always told myself I would never move back home to my parent's home. I have a hard time getting along with my mom! We have never been really close and if my dad does die what do I do...I know that I want to stay here in Central Oregon and I know my sister is moving to Texas this year. But I think this is part of the test I have to endure!
I will see you all at the end of may! Love you
Wendy

Goin back to Washington...more stress

I was asked by my dad to come home and help him out while he dies...thats how he put it! WOW what a bold question to ask of a child. One of the reason's I moved to central Oregon was to get away from the element of my parents' drinking addictions! I don't know how to feel, I do feel, however, that after all these years of taking care of my mother in law I some how need to do the same for my parent! Especially my pappa! I for once in a decade did something for my self to become more healthier and happier and that was move away from the stressful life I was in and become independant and do things for Wendy....and now I feel really anxious and unsure about it all being up in washington!
I am thankful I will have a job and that I am able to go to church at my church! I am sooo thankful that I still have my friends and loved ones to count on when I need a shoulder! I will have my puppy to keep me busy too!
The reason I am coming home is that my dad has not been doing to well! He told me that he feels like he is dying every day and that some days he doesn't get out of bed. The other day he fell and couldn't get up by himself and his legs are soo swollen that it hurts to walk, sit or lay...
I do feel that this is an oppertunity to witness to my parents and be a servant and spend what ever time I can with my dad whether it be the best or not!
I still dont have a car and so Sandy and Justin will be bringing me back to washington! I am excited to see my new cousin who as of this minute has not made his appearance into this world...Hurry Tristan!
God Bless
Wendy

Im still here!

So it looks as though I haven't written in over a month and thats due to a lot of changes goin on. I quit working for dominos and went to pizza hut. I wasn't getting very many hours and so i had to find work where there was hours. I also moved in at my neighbors parents house...LONG STORY! So my address has changed...AGAIN.
I have been dealing with a lot at home even though i am not at home in Washington. It sounds like my dad is not doing to well and because he is doing this to himself doctors won't touch him with a ten foot pole! He was completely sober for one whole week and started up drinking again. I am torn about being so far away but I have been much MUCH HAPPIER since I moved! I am sorry for not being there for my gramma! She has done so much for me and my sister thru out our lives!!
Today I realized that I will be turning 30 in less then 3 mos!! I first thought nah im not gonna worry about turning 30 and then it just hit me im gonna be 30 and my dad I hope will be turning 50! But then Im still in my 20's now! :)