Life as I know it....

I have not been my happy self lately and I feel I need to get my thoughts out of my mind and onto "paper". Yesterday I probably cried half the day away. I was cancelled by my insurance company because I was delivering pizza's at the time of my accident and they don't cover transfering goods...so when I go to the grocery store am I not transfering goods. I feel really incomfortable all the time because of this broken rib. I now can feel(this is gross) the bones shift if I move a certain way....EEEEEEWWWWWW. I hate to go towork because all I think about on my way is that I could get tboned again pulling into work. I feel soo useless at work because I am only limited to 3 hours a shift and can only answer phones and make pizzas and fold boxes, you know lite duty can't slap out dough or get things from the walk in because they are over the weight limit I can carry I can't take the pizza's out of the oven because i cant lift my left arm very high cuz it hurts!! Yes this is what I call venting!!! I have been told by my former insurance company that the damage to the other vehical is over the amount of what was covered soo I will be probably buying a new BMW and on top of it all my two cats that I brought down here are now no where to be seen...possibly coyote food im guessing!!!!
So what have I learned??? HMMM God is still in control and I still need to praise Him for my trials. Even though it seems I can't handle it I make it thru another day. I am thankful that I was not fired from my job, I am thankful for the fact my sister is here and that her and Justin have been there for me. I am thankful that I have my cousins here to pray with me and give me encouragement. I am thankful for all my friends that have come thru and helped me with rides to work and doctor appointments! I am thankful im not in as much pain as I was a week ago. I can laugh a little before it starts to hurt :) I am most greatful that God allowed me to live!! What He wants me to learn I still don't know but one of these days I hope to figure it all out! There was a point last week that I wanted to pack everything up and come home but then I knew that I would fall back into Jason's comfort and delay the divorce process because that was one thing that I could count on with Jason was whenever I was hurt or not feeling well he was always there to hold me. Also because I need my church family. I have recieved many letters and cards and they are all soooooo encouraging to me and keeps me going knowing that I have a family back home that love me just as much as I love them! I know that thru this God is making me a stronger woman. Ok so I vented and redeemed myself...
Now for more serious stuff....I cannot belive the Seahawks got squashed yesterday and that the yankees are in the playoffs....EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW
Love ya all
wendy