One Month!!!!

Well it has been one whole month since I was crashed into, and I feel that maybe I may have another set back!! I have been in some amount of pain in the back rib cage and so I let my Doc know so he sent me to see the X-Ray dudes and after my pics were taken it was plain as day that I had 2 breaks!!!!! I was only told at the hospital that I had a break on the 5th rib in the front!!! But also I have one in the back too!! I just hope that I don't get set back anymore because I am a little discouraged Im not gonna lie, but that means I will only be limited to certain duties at work and then because I can't do a lot my hours will get cut! But here I am grumbling of the things in this world that once again I CANNOT CONTROL!!! Yes, I am trying to deal with this subject.

I almost wanted to give up and come back home and go back to Jason, which I knew would be the wrong thing to do but he knew how to comfort and hold me! But Im still here! The picture is of me 3 days after my accident!! The lighting is great cuz you cant see my black eye! Oh yeah make up works too :) My friend told me that we had to go out for dinner and hang out and that I needed some much needed change of atmosphere! So we went to sing Karaoke....ok so I haven't been to a bar in a LOOOOOOOOONG time and I know now why! I can't stand drunk people!!! We both sang a song and went home! It was Horrific! Needles to say we went back to her house ate Rocky road ice cream and watched some movies!! I like that much better than the Karaoke :) Oh I forgot to mention that it snowed last nite or this morning! I woke up and saw white all over the ground it was soooo pretty...But an hour later it was gone! Gizzmo loved it though and I have no pics to show for it but it's spupose to snow again so pics will be taken!

Ill try to write sooner than later!
Wendy

Life as I know it....

I have not been my happy self lately and I feel I need to get my thoughts out of my mind and onto "paper". Yesterday I probably cried half the day away. I was cancelled by my insurance company because I was delivering pizza's at the time of my accident and they don't cover transfering goods...so when I go to the grocery store am I not transfering goods. I feel really incomfortable all the time because of this broken rib. I now can feel(this is gross) the bones shift if I move a certain way....EEEEEEWWWWWW. I hate to go towork because all I think about on my way is that I could get tboned again pulling into work. I feel soo useless at work because I am only limited to 3 hours a shift and can only answer phones and make pizzas and fold boxes, you know lite duty can't slap out dough or get things from the walk in because they are over the weight limit I can carry I can't take the pizza's out of the oven because i cant lift my left arm very high cuz it hurts!! Yes this is what I call venting!!! I have been told by my former insurance company that the damage to the other vehical is over the amount of what was covered soo I will be probably buying a new BMW and on top of it all my two cats that I brought down here are now no where to be seen...possibly coyote food im guessing!!!!
So what have I learned??? HMMM God is still in control and I still need to praise Him for my trials. Even though it seems I can't handle it I make it thru another day. I am thankful that I was not fired from my job, I am thankful for the fact my sister is here and that her and Justin have been there for me. I am thankful that I have my cousins here to pray with me and give me encouragement. I am thankful for all my friends that have come thru and helped me with rides to work and doctor appointments! I am thankful im not in as much pain as I was a week ago. I can laugh a little before it starts to hurt :) I am most greatful that God allowed me to live!! What He wants me to learn I still don't know but one of these days I hope to figure it all out! There was a point last week that I wanted to pack everything up and come home but then I knew that I would fall back into Jason's comfort and delay the divorce process because that was one thing that I could count on with Jason was whenever I was hurt or not feeling well he was always there to hold me. Also because I need my church family. I have recieved many letters and cards and they are all soooooo encouraging to me and keeps me going knowing that I have a family back home that love me just as much as I love them! I know that thru this God is making me a stronger woman. Ok so I vented and redeemed myself...
Now for more serious stuff....I cannot belive the Seahawks got squashed yesterday and that the yankees are in the playoffs....EEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW
Love ya all
wendy