Where I have been!

Where to start....Hmmm...Life definetly hasn't handed over those lemons to make lemon aid so that I could sell it and live a little. I am sooo stressed and confused and worrysome and just don't feel like myself these days! I haven't found a job yet but I have many upon many applications out in what we call the real world. I have though been helping out my cousin since she just had surgery on her rotator cuff. So I do get a few dollars here and there mainly for gas. I would get more but her husband is adamant that I help her out and work off my tooth that he paid for when I needed a cap on it. But taking her here and there for her job has worn me out, I am able to put applications in at jobs but I have to work her Schedule. But now here is the worry if I do get a job how do I help her out...See my worry?
I am coming home to Washington for my cousin's wedding and an early birthday for my mom in February. (Feb. 6,7,8) My friend Jessica is letting me take her car and she is getting a rental but little ol me has to pay for the rental...Another worry :(
But for everything else I am happy. I love living here and waking up and looking out of the kitchen window and see the Cascade Mountain range! It is soooo BEAUTIFUL! It's weird living on this side of the mountains. And knowing it takes about 2 hours to get to I5 if I want to!
I went to Portland last wednesday thru friday with Jessica for her dads open heart surgery. He went thru the surgery well but he has not been off the ventilator or the heart something that is helping his heart keep beating. They (the docs) took him off or the heart thing and with in 10 mins his heart went to only 20% usage. They are also weaning him off of the meds and 1% oxygen every 12 hours to see how much he can handle on his own. I know that he is not saved and im not totally sure about Jessica. I know that she has another friend that is a christian and very strong ones at that.
I guess on a better side of things I have started bible study on wednesdays at Church and the study I chose was Beth Moore's study on Esther~It's hard being a woman! We have only done 2 weeks so far but I love it! And I am enjoying the weekly studies in the workbook! Also I have been helping out in Children's Church too! The kids are sooo cute! One of the little guys gave me his picture he colored in class, its on my wall! (so is the one I got from Rylie too )
So thats what has been going on in this crazey girls life!
Miss and LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Lil W
PS
I haven't started the exercising because I have been having heart palpitation's and Chris wants me to see a doctor first before my heart explodes as he puts it! So I have an appointment on Feb 3 in Madras(about 45mins away from me) But I have kicked the caffeine (yeah nooooo coffee:( ) and I dropped soda too.........Oh but I am truely gonna go back to school in the fall or maybe in the summer to become a medical assistant! Ok I think I am done!
Wendy