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"Life is like a box of Chocolates...You never know what your gonna get"
~Forrest Gump~

I have to agree with ol Forrest! I am in the midst of moving my stuff out of my cousin's house and figuring out what I want to take with me to Washington and planning my birthday fishing mission and making sure I am doing the right thing! I know this will be a test and I have to admitt I hate taking tests. (maybe because i never really studied for them) But I am sure that God is throwing this at me to enable me to be a stronger woman and to witness to my parents. I will be bringing Gizzmo with me and man he is become my Best Bud! He hates it when I go to work that if not being restrained by Chris then he will chase after me in the truck! I have to admitt its partly my fault that he chases the truck only because at times Milo and Gizzmo go for runs runnig after the truck and boy they both are fast little boogers!!! It is the funniest thing to watch! Thats one of the great things living in the country! You live on a dirt road that is about a half mile and at the end is your mail box! And its just awesome having a panoramic view of the mountains in your front window!
I am getting anxious about living back at home! I always told myself I would never move back home to my parent's home. I have a hard time getting along with my mom! We have never been really close and if my dad does die what do I do...I know that I want to stay here in Central Oregon and I know my sister is moving to Texas this year. But I think this is part of the test I have to endure!
I will see you all at the end of may! Love you
Wendy

Goin back to Washington...more stress

I was asked by my dad to come home and help him out while he dies...thats how he put it! WOW what a bold question to ask of a child. One of the reason's I moved to central Oregon was to get away from the element of my parents' drinking addictions! I don't know how to feel, I do feel, however, that after all these years of taking care of my mother in law I some how need to do the same for my parent! Especially my pappa! I for once in a decade did something for my self to become more healthier and happier and that was move away from the stressful life I was in and become independant and do things for Wendy....and now I feel really anxious and unsure about it all being up in washington!
I am thankful I will have a job and that I am able to go to church at my church! I am sooo thankful that I still have my friends and loved ones to count on when I need a shoulder! I will have my puppy to keep me busy too!
The reason I am coming home is that my dad has not been doing to well! He told me that he feels like he is dying every day and that some days he doesn't get out of bed. The other day he fell and couldn't get up by himself and his legs are soo swollen that it hurts to walk, sit or lay...
I do feel that this is an oppertunity to witness to my parents and be a servant and spend what ever time I can with my dad whether it be the best or not!
I still dont have a car and so Sandy and Justin will be bringing me back to washington! I am excited to see my new cousin who as of this minute has not made his appearance into this world...Hurry Tristan!
God Bless
Wendy

Im still here!

So it looks as though I haven't written in over a month and thats due to a lot of changes goin on. I quit working for dominos and went to pizza hut. I wasn't getting very many hours and so i had to find work where there was hours. I also moved in at my neighbors parents house...LONG STORY! So my address has changed...AGAIN.
I have been dealing with a lot at home even though i am not at home in Washington. It sounds like my dad is not doing to well and because he is doing this to himself doctors won't touch him with a ten foot pole! He was completely sober for one whole week and started up drinking again. I am torn about being so far away but I have been much MUCH HAPPIER since I moved! I am sorry for not being there for my gramma! She has done so much for me and my sister thru out our lives!!
Today I realized that I will be turning 30 in less then 3 mos!! I first thought nah im not gonna worry about turning 30 and then it just hit me im gonna be 30 and my dad I hope will be turning 50! But then Im still in my 20's now! :)

AMAZING!!!

Ok so I have slacked on my blogging!!! And please forgive me!!! Sometimes I feel like a drone for my job!! I almost feel like I should move all my stuff to work and just live there! Its really hard for me due to not having a car at this time to have a life. I am ALWAYS at work either working or waiting for a ride home. * I live 15 miles away* I chose the word AMAZING for my attribute of God because I am amazed how He allows things to work out for me. How He brought Chris in my life...my neighbor. It's nice to have a friend who is willing to help out when I need a ride or when I work all day someone to come and let my puppy out of his kennel and play with him. And just someone to just hang out with being out here in the country....Chris has an american bulldog name Milo. Milo and Gizzmo are great buddies! We take the boys for walks together and they are not short ones either! Sometimes as of lately we take them for midnight walks in the snow since it seems like it only snows at night! both of the dogs love the snow. Milo is 8 yrs old and he turns into a little puppy when he is out in the snow! Im Amazed that God has given me the strenth to stand up for my beliefs and to be able to witness to Chris. I am also amazed that I am becoming a stronger woman being on my own and having self control. I am also amazed that I am surviving all the snow we have been having!! I LOVE IT!!!
I need to ask for forgiveness for not communicating with everyone and that I am honestly not trying to forget everyone! I did get a new phone number and plan to give it out!
LOVE YOU ALL!!!
Wendy
PS Amy...gramma said you had to miss Church today...Im praying for you and Anna that you both will be healthy and safe!!
love you
me

Merry Christmas!!!

I just wanted to take the time and send a Merry CHRISTmas hello to all my friends and family who read this! Sandy and I made it home for Christmas safely and are kinda bummed to find out that we left and it snowed at least 3 inches where we live!!! :) We had a wonderful time with our family last night.
I was just informed last Friday that not only did I sustain 1 broken rib but found out...after 2 months that I have 5 broken ribs from my accident! 4 of them are healing well and one is still healing displaced! Other than that I am doing fine and dandy!
I hope and pray you all have a blessed Christmas and a even better new year!! I am sorry for not sending out cards!!!
I love you all!
Wendy and Gizzmo :)

My Christmas tradition.....

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
Just like the ones I used to know
Where the treetops glisten,
and children listen
To hear sleigh bells in the snow
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas
With every Christmas card I write
May your days be merry and bright
And may all your Christmases be white

Everyone I am sure has a Christmas tradition or two! I have a few but one of my non Biblical tradition's is to watch Irving Berlin's "White Christmas" Starring Bing Crosby, Danny Kaye, Rosemary Coloony and Vera Allen. As long as I can remember I have watched that movie on TV with my gramma and grampa Culbertson. I have the movie memorized, I know all the songs and could probably do the dance numbers too! My grampa Bob was a great closet entertainer! He loved to dance and sing! He taught me to jitterbug and waltz! He also help me find my love for singing by just hearing him sing the songs he grew up listening too and also all the AWESOME old skool hymns! Most people would have thought of Grampa not liking Christmas...But he loved it for the One reason! Our Savoir! But then him and gramma had two secondary reasons to love Christmas...me and Sandy! They would take us to go and by a pretty dress we would wear for our Church Christmas programs each year and then that would also conclude dinner at Sizzler! Grampa loved that place! Grampa would get steak and Gramma, Sandy and I would get the salad bar! One year Grampa sang "Oh Holy Night" for the Church Christmas program and I got a litte teary hearing him sing that song from his heart! Thru out grampas life he had many reasons to just give up and go along the worlds way of living but he always seemed to carry that pride know ing that he was a child of God even though grampa had a hard time dealing with the fact we have eternal security! The 100% garuntee that we would never loose our salvation if we truely meant that we wanted Christ in our lives/hearts. At the time I was born grampa and gramma were not going to church and grampa said that his grandchildren will be going to Church and Im thankful for the devotion they both had for keeping us head deep in the word and consistant in Church!
I have made some small and big mistakes in my life. But I know that the best thing I ever did was secure my life! I celebrate Christmas because that was the beginning of my new life!!!
Thank you Grampa and Gramma!!!
I love you both!
Pooh bear

WINTER FISHING...

OOOOOO I can't wait for Saturday!!! I get to go Steelhead fishing! Im sure it will lets say oh REALLLLLLLLY cold, but catching my first Steelhead...PRICELESS and sooooo worth it! I love the fact that God gave us the knowledge to figure out how to fish and gather for ourselves! The fun part of it all though is fighting for your dinner :-)!!!! And then reaping in the rewards by eating it or if you are like me share the wealth!!!
I had another doctor appointment today reguarding my accident! My rib is still broken! It will be 2 months on December 20! So my doctor is going to send my X-rays to a radiologist to make sure the way that it is healing and the speed or lack of is not to be overly concerned over! I will know in a week!
Im looking forward to come home for the holidays! I know that it seems like I talk about my accident a lot and Im sorry! But that was a hard for me to deal with! I have never been in anything like it and am constantly THANKFUL that God protected me! And that life is precious and He gives and can take away and how fortunate I have the dear friends and family that helped and still are helping, close by! I am in debted to you all!
Work is ok! I worked my first 10 and a half hour shift yesterday since being back to full duty! I was doing good till hour 9 and my 5th and 6th wind was running out! One of our managers just up and quit...And so I took her opening shift and then other employees needed to be off earlier and so I said I would be the last to go home since I had to wait for my ride to get off work!
Gizzmo is getting big and is still a handful! I keep thinking...oh Lord what did I get my hands full with...Jack russel, wired hair schnouzer and mini pincer.....oh what a combo!!! Oh well I love him and he is loads of fun!
I have been killing my off time just hanging out at home watching football! I have missed the last 2 sundays watching football and going to church because of work! I hate to miss football but cant stand to miss a sunday of Church! But I am blessed to have my cousin to pray with and sit and talk about what we are doing for devotions or a verse that got to us! And it keeps me going thru the week!
My Church back in Washington started to post "THE REV'S" sermons on mp3 format on the Church website! And nothing compares to Pastor Franks sermons! Sorry Ryan! You do have an AWESOME mentor! but you are just as good! Im kinda bummed I won't be able to go to Church when I'm home!
My novel is finished for now! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
"Jesus is the reason for the season"