Life is GRAND!

I love life I am happy and in control of what I can control! just thought I let you all know!
wendy

The good that came out of my dad's death...

So I recieved an email from my ex husband this morning. He was asking how I was doing and what not and proceeded to tell me that I was in his thoughts lately. He kept telling me how my dads death had affected him a great deal and that he has started to go to AA. He now is doing comedy sober and also is drug free he told me for the last 11 days!
Not once in our marriage did anything scare him tomake him want to change. I am prouod of the accomplishment he has made to not end up the same way my dad or his BIOLOGICAL dad did.
Now the next prayer is that he makes a commitment to the LORD! He is a great person down deep and just pray that he finds Gods peace in his life! I know that when the day comes when his mom passes away that he will be a wreck and I hope and pray that he is emotionaly stable and sober to deal with it all.
Wendy

Yup

So I talked to my mom yesterday and for some reason I don't feel close to her anymore...I found myself fishing around for things to say and nothing came to mind. I told her about my garden(which is doing great!) and asked her about the L&I thing if she has gotten a hold of anyone yet. and after 13 mins of almost wasted time on our cell phones I told her I had to go. I knew I never really had a close relationship with her but sometimes like now I wish that I could talk to her but I just cant. I need prayer in this part of my life because I fell like I don't have any parent anymore. I feel abandon.

The Secret????

I have come across a movie called "The Secret". What is the secrect you may ask?? As far as I can gather it is the law of attraction. Not just people but things as well. You are to have a higher power...DUH and you are suppose to think about positive things and they will attract to you! So I was thinking that if I put my TRUST in my Higher Power(GOD) I will attract what I need in my life not my wants because my wants are not all that God wants me to have right now or maybe never. Who knows. I am really not sure about this movie I haven't watched it all but it is also a book. One of the contributors is Jack Canfield, the guy who wrote the "Chicken Soup for the Soul" books.
I would like some feedback on this book if anyone knows.

Other stuff I saw the doctor dude and he is trying to get me approved to have an MRI done on my neck and shoulders so I am waiting. The hurry up and wait period of my life! It is amazing how one person can endure annoying pain for a long period of time! I was the slacker but I also didn't want to have to continue doctor care. I did switch doctors though because I felt the other doctor I had didn't address other things I was complaining about. I sometimes think that he was just working for workmans comp than for me as the patient. They don't like to keep claims open.
I will be getting my fishing blog going here soon I hope...
Take care miss all of you
wendy

New Monday rituals!

So I work with my sister and my boss is a new christian and she and another Wendy(awesome name) are starting a bible study in the mornings. She told me that its gonna be in the book of Romans! I am sooooo STOAKED!!!! I love Romans...Ok I love the whole Bible.
On tuesday I am going to see a Doctor reguarding my car accident back in September. I am having a hard time getting out of bed in the mornings because I am in sooooo much pain in my neck and Shoulder region. Of course this happens after my claim is closed. Just pray that I can get this all done and over with and to be able to put it behind me.
Love
Wendy

I dont know....

I miss him soooo much! Last night I was on my way home from fishing(the evening bite) and I just started to cry! I was thinking about my dad and how he was the one who barely caught the fish with him and my Uncle Chuck. I wanted to call and talk to him and tell him that my new fishing pole doesnt work....it doesn't catch fish! I have gone out 3 times since I got it and no fish! NONE!!! Or like the other day while walking tru the garden Chris and I planted and noticing the new growth on our crop and how I wanted to gloat to tell him I got tomatoes. I just seem to not want to believe he is not there anymore that he is now just mere ashes.

This and that!

So on Monday Chris and I went fishing with Sandy and Justin in the almighty Deschutes river! Oh it was sooooo much fun! Didn't catch anything but my sister! (will explain) But the day started at 4:30 for me. We all drive about 45 mins or so north of Crooked River Ranch to a campground called Trout Creek. The boys definetly had a silent mission...catch more than the other, where as Sandy and I just fished. We all kinda split up and I hung out with my little sis. I felt sooo happy that I was actually showing my little sister how to do something and guiding her as much as I could. Growing up this would have never happenend! I am soo blessed to have Sandy for my sister! God always seems to amaze me daily!
But anyways, Sandy and I found "the spot" not "THE spot" but our spot! The river was flowing and not so very deep and yet some how after your legs become numb you can still walk! We found a couple of rocks, Sandy's was a couple inches submerged in the river where mine was sticking out of the water. We both just said no worries about getting wet and fished! It would have been a classic picture of the two of us sittin in the water fishin!
After a while and 3 snags on each other we decided to go find the boys. I clipped our lines and tied some knots and got off my rock, and for some reason this sort of thing ALWAYS happens when you are sooooooo close to the shoreline; I fell in! I knew I was done for the day! And it felt really good because the sun was so HOT!!!!!
The next day at work I saw Sandy and she had racoon eyes and a red face! I did offer some sun screen but she declined! Maybe it was the big sister thing? I will never know~
Pictures soon to follow
Wendy